as usual , im rotting at home by not doing anything ! I had plans but i had to cancle them .
all thanks to the one person who i have been wanting to meet & i have been begging for forgivness . its not even my fault & im facing this . i have never been in such relationship to face all this prob by myself . how fair can that be for me ? im lost . i have hide all this prob way to much that im starting to burst , what a bitch ! the best part im not the one who is hurting him , he is ! what else can someone want from me ? i gave in for almost everything hardly suspected him . & this is what i get back ? how heartless . to think about it once again i have been so freaking patience with everything he did & said . I GET THE BLAME FOR NO REASON STILL ? im so pisssed that im showing it to everyone around me for the shit he gives me . im also getting pissed by the fact that he is not replying to my msges & avoiding me ! if the reason is "space"for his action . then what a i suppose to do ? get to some country far far away & rot to death ? i agree i have done the stupid stuff & said stupid things to him , but that was to put some sense into his brain . which girl can take the fact that she is with a guy wo still has got feeling for his ex ? none ! i have been tru shit that i dunt want to feel the same old feeling back .
errrgg ! im so hurt & pissed . what else can someone say about this ? leave him ? lols .. im just going to be abit more patience & see what he is gonna do futhermore i dunt even know if he still want this !

Im not saying all this to bring my boo down .
It's just emotion which im letting out .

I love you :(