Vanessa Daisy ' s World

2010-01-25T16:52:00.000-08:00

The dunce cap is off !

2009-11-28T05:47:00.000-08:00

The dunce cap is off !

And you wont realize it, Till it's gone.
I wish I can crawl under a rock somewhere and just die
Just want the pain to go away, today !

This is stupid

BUT I STILL LOVE YOU !

2009-11-17T00:20:00.000-08:00

"I'm scared, too scared to give it my all till you tell me to."

2009-11-12T02:19:00.000-08:00

"Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?"

- Unknown

2009-11-10T03:38:00.000-08:00

"Work like you don't need money. love like you've never been hurt. Dance like nobody's watching. Sing like nobody's listening. Live like it's heaven on earth"

- Peace Love and happiness

2009-11-06T20:55:00.000-08:00

When you love someone enough,you put their needs before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs were,no matter how fucked up, no matter how much it made you feel like you were ripping yourself into peices; you put their needs first. ♥

And I still love you as much as I did.And that will never go away.

2009-11-06T01:15:00.000-08:00

i feel like i've completely fallen off the edge.

i knew that i had those people in my life that will keep me going,

& those people were my friends.

But where are they at this point of time ? SCREW YOU PEOPLE.

YOUR LOVE IS LIKE A MAGNET,

You keep pulling me in, pulling me in♥

The players.

2009-11-05T05:47:00.000-08:00

He'll meet you and sweep you off of your feet He's nice and he's funny, so cute and so sweet Surprisingly, he likes the same things as you He does all the things that you love to do He's the perfect guy, the one of your dreams You belong together, or so it seems! He looks in your eyes, and plays with your hair He tells you that he'll always be there His touch is so soft, his hold is so tight, His words are so soothing, his kiss is just right! You ditch all your friends for your new obsession You don't realize your future is full of depression You think that you love him, you give him your heart Little do you know that he'll tear it apart You do what he wants, you know its not good You told him slow down, and you think he understood You let it slide by, he's just having fun You'll learn to like it as time goes on! He's taken your heart, and locked it away And you see him with a different girl the next day You cry and you grieve, but then you forgive, He won't do it again for as long as he lives! At this point you've fallen into his trap He has all control when you're in his lap You believe he's sorry, you're together again You give him a chance, he's your only friend! You're right where he wants you, he molds you like clay, And you see him with girl number 3 the next day He got what he wanted, accomplished his goal He still has your heart, which he evilly stole! He's taken your purity, you still can't believe You feel hurt and cheap and extremely naive. If only your hair was nice and straight If only you looked like hot/sexy If only your clothes were a little bit tighter. You know he's an ass, but you still want him back And you grieve about all of those qualities you lack All you wanted was to have some fun Now you wish that this whole thing had never begun You wish that one day you'll see him cry That one day he'll know how he killed you inside! But you know that he won't, cause he's numb to pain He'll be with some girl while you cry and complain Beware of the players, they'll steal your heart And they'll give it back once its all torn apart Don't let them suck you into their game Cause once you lose, you're never the same.

FUCK GUYS((:

-_-

2009-10-22T21:59:00.000-07:00

FUCK YOU VERY VERY MUCH BITCH .

& to my love , Happy 2mths baby (:

2009-09-27T20:57:00.000-07:00

Good Afternoon readers (:

It's monday & i have got no school . nice right ? oh adding on to it i have got no school for 3wks

get jealous ! *big smile* it's just a small evil desire . ahahks !

Anw school is being a major pain . But ehks it ain't so bad cause there is like to 2 more mths till school ttly end . & 3 mths for my b'dae . cool right ? Alright now things are heating up ! weehoo :x

18th b'day = Drink , Drunk , Party !

Anw , im seriously suffering in pain & have got nothing much to talk about .

So goodbye beeytches (:

2009-09-25T01:25:00.000-07:00

does he make you go gaga ?

Gosh , he makes me go gugu gaga !

Anw if your wondering where have my profile , tag & link have gone .

It is missing . lols !

wanted a major change & this was what i came up with nothing but my blog post .

Alright , im out of here !

Toodles (:

bored (:

2009-08-31T06:51:00.000-07:00

A - AVAILABLE:♥ nope .

B - BIRTHDAY:♥ 17 jan .

C - CRUSHING ON:♥ nope .

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD:♥ bird nest .

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO:♥ Stephanie & priya (:

F - FAVOURITE SONGS:♥ alot ?!

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?♥ Gummy worms .

H - HOME TOWN:♥ Singapore .

I - IN LOVE WITH:♥ (:

J - JUGGLE:♥ nope .

K - KILLED SOMEONE:♥ i wish'ED'

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE:♥ more then 6 hrs ?

M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOUR:♥ chocolate .

N - NUMBER OF PIERCINGS:♥ 7 ?

O - ONE WISH:♥

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST:♥ Napkin !

R - REASON TO SMILE:♥ ducks ? random i know !

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD:♥ hotel room .

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP:♥ 8am

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN:♥ black (:

V - VEGETABLE(S):♥ None .

W - WORST HABIT:♥ not sure .

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD:♥ What about it .

Y – YOYOS ARE:♥ *zzzZZZzz*

Z - ZODIAC SIGN:♥ capricon .

I was bored & yupp this was what i came up with . lols (:
P.S- god save the world !

2009-08-29T06:51:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOO im' fighting for some peace here !
Don't make it sound like i owe you big time .
i seriously need you out of my effing way PLEASE & THANK YOU ! (=
"i know im being very nice :x"

& hell yeah TEACHER'S DAY is coming !
i can't wait to get my candy ass back sec school =D
Weehoo ! wokey im starting to sound like some crackpot !
But still i can't waitttttttt .. ! *jumping in joy*

P.S-Deepaaaaa can you ask him back my IPOD ! & i love my girls .
HAPPY B'DAE MJ

2009-08-28T00:08:00.000-07:00

Can school shut down quick !

P.s - screw you !

2009-08-25T03:35:00.000-07:00

He said - It's love !
I said - boy , it's not love . your just having fun !

P.S- God save all the guys with a huge ego

2009-08-22T01:56:00.000-07:00

Your words took my sorrow away !
But can you be trusted ? that is something that is hunting me down !

P.s - God help !

2009-08-20T03:52:00.000-07:00

I have said this once to you & im gonna say this again ,
You're badly missed !
& boy , trust me when i say your the only one i need right now & forever !

2009-08-11T06:18:00.000-07:00

Trust me i will be there till the very end !
"im the angel sent down by god to you"

School & things around sucks big time !
& im dying out of happiness !

start making peace people (=

2009-08-07T22:25:00.000-07:00

Drink , Drank , Drunk !
Drinking is the bitch !

I guess your the perfect guy & im missing you (=
"im the angel sent down by god to you"

2009-08-06T06:11:00.000-07:00

I had always thought you were the one .
I had always felt save with your warm touch & kiss .
I loved you & you had it .

I had enough of you . Your just a major loser like the rest !
boy , you seriously need to go for some soul searching

Seeing me happy ? yupp , im better off without you =)

2009-08-01T04:38:00.000-07:00

Will my heart be able to take anymore pain ?

Will i ever get sick of getting hurt ?

Will i ever trust any guy & love ?

CAN I EVEN TRUST MYSELF ?

Life surely have loads of sparks to it !

2009-07-31T05:28:00.000-07:00

My life sucks !
& thats offical .

does life has sparks to it ?

2009-07-30T05:20:00.000-07:00

Belive it anot i was in school the whole day YES the wholeeeee dayyy till 4 .
starting of the day was hilarous , The joke of the day was cracking every of us up during our morning breakfast at LJS " tight & lose bubble tea " . lols !
& Guess what ? there was some workshop in school today about dying ppl ? yeah , ppl with sickness & how we were gonna visit them . sad arx ?! Haiss ..
well , after school we were at KFC & as usuall making fun of priya's shortgun wedding & plus her future ! I was the joker of the table i seriously made everyone laugh thier ass off ! cause basically that was the only way to burn time !
Oh , not to forget stephanie friend was there gosh he was so small & cute !! im serious about it !
& not forgetting priya is late for her outting with her lawyer thanks to us :x are we bad or what ? lols !

What have i brought myself into ? am i suppose to get hurt even more ?

2009-07-28T02:54:00.000-07:00

The past is back & im all confused & lost again !

God helppppp =(

2009-07-22T20:59:00.000-07:00

Daily horoscope .

Today won't be a ride in a hot-air balloon, but it might be akin to a walk in the park. If you're walking through the park at night and there are shady characters everywhere, that is. Seriously, you'll want to keep a lookout today.

Welcoming myself back after a long brk from blogging .

& im sick (38.4) but besides that im still blogging .

how amazing can that turn out to be ? ahahaks . im like taking a very long time to even type a word . & im getting annoyed be the fact that im bored & im being disturb by ppl online .

Anw im off to get some rest now . my body hurts & im getting the kick already .

Good bye (:

2009-07-14T04:42:00.000-07:00

Where do i go from here ?

It's easy to say "move on"but its hard to actually do it !

Look at me & its obvious that im all messed up . i feel rather used !

Re-posting back , what do you take me for ?!

I can't hang on any longer . im done with the fack smile .

& im all lost & it hurts alot !

my hopes & dreams are shattered .

Every night I cry to sleep

And mend my broken heart

I've tried to keep my hopes up

saying "I have a chance" !

2009-07-08T04:06:00.000-07:00

Yeah , i know relationships can take a bad turn .
Trust ain't made it gotta be earned .
I dun't understand why he is mad ? what wrong did i do , what right did you do right ?
you act like the memory is gone . you was where my mind was !
put the past behind us , i just wanna rewind us so i can decline us & never remind us of the shit you put me through . but life ain't like that .

I couldn't belive what i have seen . My heart had been ripped ito pieces of three .
the one who held my heart had thrown it away . i''m heartless now ! i just entered heartbreak going thru heartache walking with a heavy heart how much can my heart take ?
i think its gonna blow . yes, explode !
but it's in pieces so i know it wont

i thought he would be by my side for the whole ride but he left before the heavy rain and ran inside so now i'm stuck here & im soaking wet not by the rain but by my tears !

By:Kaatre vaa :x

2009-07-06T22:00:00.000-07:00

Welcoming myself after 5 days (:

Oh , I wanna make this clear to you !

Your heartless & the same as other guys !

Screw you & your fack love :x

I'm done with being patience to every shit you gave me .

I loved you & this is what i get in return ?!

SHIT ! lols hell with it !

Peace out & love

2009-07-02T00:20:00.000-07:00

Basically today was another boring day !

So i ended up looking at my horoscope

& the result :

People will ask you to step in and help them sort out a sticky argument that seems to have affected everyone but you. Roll your eyes and tell them the obvious answer.

Arrg , how boring can my life be ? no plans , no nothing .

everyone is busy with thier own stuff & i just feel so left out by one .

& school is about to start in few days times . Haizz , im hardly prepared for it .

Can i have another one week of holiday please ?! :x

another thing which is seriously making me proud of myself , that

Everyone is happy with the things im gonna change in life !

no more making use , drunk shit , getting high , red eye & etc !

Im done with you bitch !

& now welcome the new me

2009-07-01T02:34:00.000-07:00

I'm giving up :x
I'm giving up on smoking , Drinking , Getting high & other shit ! I've always thought the people around me was my world & would always be around me . I was blinded by that . But they actaully turn out to be , BAD INFLUENCE !? Oh , an better way of saying 'MAKING USE' !

Haizz , i have never asked myself if all of thoes were worth it ? Till that day when i had an serious Talk with francis & his friend . It turn out to be whatever they said was true ! Hmmm , it seriously did knock some sense into me . If not for them i think i would just be the same old me Oh , maybe that not really me ! So when i headed back i did loads of thinking & i thought it was high time to change & prove SOME people that i can be better off then them :X So im turning into an new leaf (:

So goodbye Old life
And hello new life !

& thanks for knocking some sense into my head !

2009-06-28T01:50:00.000-07:00

Life is a whore ,

fuck every living souls !

Never dream to high . cause what you always want will never come true .

it's not something which i dun't belive or dun't wanna belive in . it's just something that never happends . or maybe im just assuming . or maybe it's just the fact & im running away from it . you choose ? fact or assume .

i'll take it as fact till the day my dreams come true .

Trust no guys .

offical :x

2009-06-23T00:39:00.000-07:00

"What If I Had A Thing On The Side

Made You Cry

Would The Rules Change Up Or Would They Still Apply

If I, Played You Like A Toy

Sometimes I wish I did act Like A Boy"

*Bitch slap* *Bitch slap*

WAKE UP VANESSA DAISY LOOK AT WHAT IS HAPPENING !

why am i getting treated in such annoying way ? can't you see how much i love you !

Why are you being an irrtaitant fuckhead ? it's serioulsy driving me nuts that i just feel like hitting you . wake up man !!

You dun't bother about me , nor do you seem like yoou care if im a still breathing .

im pissed with the way you treat & behave towards me !

Besides all the negative talk , at times your as sweet as a pie at & that is only when im with you . it makes me have butterflies in my tummy ! & you shower me with so much of love

i wonder why ? Haizz .. Babyboy do you really love me ? or isit just you ?

You never fail to make me jealous whether im with you anot !

but please change for the best .

I really really loveeeeeeee you !

Errg . im starting to talk crap . its mainly cause im bored !

im rotting . someone save me pleaseeeeeee :x

2009-06-21T03:59:00.000-07:00

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it

It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings

The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it

This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock

Even though I love you a lot

I’ve given every breath

I’ve got Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

Listen…

I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is

Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it?

All these promises are probably how you deal with it

I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don’t think I forgot

Because I really didn’t care if you’re lying a lot

I’ve given every breath

I’ve got Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

We all make mistakes

Sometimes we do desperate things

What does it prove? NOTHING

And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long

Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

2009-06-21T02:13:00.000-07:00

Happy 2mths baby (;

It's just a lil something i did for you .

Hope you like & sorry cause it a lil short .

2009-06-18T03:11:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

Watch this , it is so annoying & super funny !

Rape me in my thight . lols !

2009-06-17T22:28:00.000-07:00

Another boring day !

had plans of going out to meet babes but something caught up last min .

Dammm .. this always happends ! & im getting real annoyed with it .

Btw , yesterday night was a big surprise !

Firstly babaes was talking to me for hrs & he hardly does that .

Secondly i think im being convised by what i had to hear .

tho it still hard when i think about it . i mean what's life witout ups & down ? wokey that was to to convise myself once again . perhaps im just assuming stuff .

You know all thoes wild imagination of love . lols !

Duh , who does not wanna be happy when it comes to realstionship !

oh , & i forgot to say this im madly in love with babes ! ppl always say never never let a guy know how much you love him cos its an advantage for him !

but love has this blissful feeling , noone can actually control it right !

so yeah , it's lake of self-control . & at this very point im craving for him (;

like how one craves for sweets . hmmm , i think i can go another day by writing alot .

i off to eat now . till later (;

2009-06-16T21:28:00.000-07:00

God ! my internet is being a such a bitch, anw i just woke up.filled my stomach & got ready for for other stuffs . but its still early before i do anything so i thought i could just burn a lil time by blogging.about yesterday,it was abit cocky, though its back to normal i did something which i did not wanted to do infront of him, CRY ! but tears could not hang on for long that it actually burst.But even that everything is back to normal i just sense something is not good.im just trying to convince myself that im assuming things & whatever that im seeing & thinking is not true . its the only way out to not get hurt.but to look in to such situaton why would some actually keep thier ex pic in thier hp, whether thier using that phone for thier daily use or whether its just a spare phone .& much more classic will be by creating a folder specailly for the pix . errg.. faustrated cause i never did see it there but like i said im convincing myself that it has been there ever since i have been with him .but im serioiusly trying my best not to make an issue or put much thought on it. cause i have been in such situatuion that it was hard & it takes time.as for me all i can do is try to make things better & bring him out of such situation & lead an happy life here cause in the end its only going to hurt us both.i'm going to endure as much as i can or should to make him move on & i promise ill be a better person.
but babes you have to make up your mind you can't cheat yourself by doing such thing its just hurting the both of us. honestly be in my shoes if you had seen such thing how would it have been ? disturbing & very hurting .you got to set your heart for one . just please dunt hurt me anymore . trust me it pains like a knife cutting tru . i love you boo (;

2009-06-14T21:01:00.000-07:00

I mean everything that I say
From the bottom of my heart
I will never, never ever hurt you
I open my heart

Open my heart
Give it to you
Tell the whole world that I'm in love with you
Whatever you want

Baby I'll doI know I don't want nobody else but you
There's nothing I won't doTo spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy

2009-06-11T00:08:00.000-07:00

as usual , im rotting at home by not doing anything ! I had plans but i had to cancle them .
all thanks to the one person who i have been wanting to meet & i have been begging for forgivness . its not even my fault & im facing this . i have never been in such relationship to face all this prob by myself . how fair can that be for me ? im lost . i have hide all this prob way to much that im starting to burst , what a bitch ! the best part im not the one who is hurting him , he is ! what else can someone want from me ? i gave in for almost everything hardly suspected him . & this is what i get back ? how heartless . to think about it once again i have been so freaking patience with everything he did & said . I GET THE BLAME FOR NO REASON STILL ? im so pisssed that im showing it to everyone around me for the shit he gives me . im also getting pissed by the fact that he is not replying to my msges & avoiding me ! if the reason is "space"for his action . then what a i suppose to do ? get to some country far far away & rot to death ? i agree i have done the stupid stuff & said stupid things to him , but that was to put some sense into his brain . which girl can take the fact that she is with a guy wo still has got feeling for his ex ? none ! i have been tru shit that i dunt want to feel the same old feeling back .
errrgg ! im so hurt & pissed . what else can someone say about this ? leave him ? lols .. im just going to be abit more patience & see what he is gonna do futhermore i dunt even know if he still want this !

Im not saying all this to bring my boo down .
It's just emotion which im letting out .

I love you :(

2009-06-10T04:37:00.000-07:00

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel !

And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

2009-06-09T05:17:00.000-07:00

The whole day at home rotting , how annoying can that be ?!
Nobody is home to entertain me & there is nothing on tv for me to watch either
& sad part my ppd has got no $ for anyone to call me ! im dying ! & the internet is screwed .

I have been waiting for atleast 1 msg from you & i get none !
you call this love ? screw you boy !
I'm still enduring . dun't make me burst at ya !

god im dying !
get me something to do .

2009-06-08T21:58:00.000-07:00

Boring , Boring , Boring !

Everything that is happening around me is boring .

including you !

times up sucker !

2009-06-03T06:24:00.000-07:00

if all our life is but a dream !

i will stone you to death .
& leave you dead all by yourself !
It's just a evil desire ;x

you're wishing for me & that is nice to see !
& it's call karma sucker !

2009-05-30T03:55:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers ,
im' not gonna blog for awhile as im' pretty busy with stuffs & my internet is being a bitch !

So please do wait till the bitch gets back & im done with stuffs (;

2009-05-20T03:37:00.001-07:00

Today was such a boomsday .
i hardly slpt the whole night due to some things ! & im' effin slpy that i cant even move . all that i was hearing was people shouting at me ! how was it my fault blame the guy ! he is the reason for my doing or what i did . i have explain to you for about 41588160001 times but it never seem to get into your head ! i thought explaining & making time to even explain will make you understand but it does nt seem like it ! for once can you guys be abit more optimistic about whatever the fuck you all are doing & be mature ! i cant be also going tru all this shit every single day & talking to everybody about this . i can't be brking down every single moment ! one fine day i might just drown in my own tears . hahaks joke ?! anw dunt you think somebody will just have to give in , then why dunt you ? one last thing i wan you to know that your not at wrong . i just feel bad for you cause your going to tru shit for my doing ! im really sorry . its just that i cant seem to set my mind on something . im effin, confuse ! but your action can be abit of a pain at time . im seriously enduring every shit ! all you do is show me face ? and talk as if im seriously at wrong ! wait , maybe iam but you know the full reason right then what is your prob ? why cant you just say something ? anw im sorry to say this but i think i might just give up . & babes i still do love you !

anw todays school was sucky , teachers was sucky , assigments was sucky everything was just sucky ! it s was the worst day of my life ! maybe not life but just the worst day . im' starting to hate school ! why must we go school ? haiz ..

i think iam off to an early sleep . good night souls (;

P.S- somebody save me !

2009-05-13T06:08:00.000-07:00

Confuse ? Stress ? happy ? angry ? sad ?
Sometime i wonder why do we have to go tru such shit in life ?
Why should we face many prob that we can't solve ?
Some emotionally break down , some show it by hurting themself . there are like many way out
but why isint there a way where everthing goes smoothly or a way where nobody will get hurt ?
Hahaks , & everyone claims it as "life" . like for an example today , how can a guy actually play around with two girls feeling like some toy & just throw them away in a snap of fingers infront of many people ! it was sad to see the two girls face , dissapointed & all sad ! it was hard to actually say what was running on the girls face ! WORDS OF ANGER & DISSAPOINTMENT i say !
well guys are guys all heartless hmm , maybe not all of them but some !
Actually when it comes to guys i run out of words ! words that cant tell how heartless they are .
so yeah , im stopping here i can't think anymore .

Good night peeps (;

2009-05-12T06:17:00.000-07:00

I'am having fever & my head hurts so much that i can't even think a thing .
i have got school tmr & i dunt know if i should go ,
because firstly there is some shit that have got to finish !
so yeah , i will think about if i should go school .
Anw i can't write no longer , cause after this whatever i'm gonna write will be filled craps !

so i will stop right here at this point !

Please pray that i get well soon (;

Baby your the air i breath in !
And it feels so good to say it aloud
I love you (;

To babes (;

2009-05-10T05:50:00.000-07:00

I look away
When you try to look in my eyes
Cuz I'm afraid
That I may scare you with what's inside
I try not to be so
Damn obviously overcome
When you smile at me
I try not to care that
You've become the air in my lungs
That I live to breathe

[Chorus]

I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm no longer afraid to say
I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm no longer afraid
I love you

[Verse 2]

Now until then
I don't care far away it is
When all I fear
This love will simply say it's not over again
I just can't believe how
Scared I used to be to say
What you are to me
I would surely die if
You were ever to fly away
Cuz I live to breathe you

[Chorus]

I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm no longer afraid to say
I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm no longer afraid
I love you

[Verse 3]

And it feels so good to say it aloud
I love you
I love you
Wherever you go
Baby you know
Right here
And right now
I love you

[Chorus]

I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm no longer afraid to say
I love you
I love you
I love you
I'm no longer afraid
I love you

2009-05-07T06:42:00.000-07:00

What does jealousy means ?

Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust. Jealousy differs from envy in that jealousy is about something one has and is afraid of losing, while envy refers to something one does not have and either wants to acquire or to prevent another from acquiring.

Random right ? hahaks , all thx to babes !

2009-05-06T02:18:00.000-07:00

I have got BPF test tomorrow .
& i will be off to study in awhile !

Can't belive ? lols , too bad !
people change so do i (;

Please pray that i should pass
cause if i don't my friday afternoon will be burn for BPF
(EXTRA CLASS)

BPF SUCKS (;
& i'm off now .

2009-05-04T05:39:00.000-07:00

I was back to school after a very long time .
when i woke up first thing in the morning the first thing that came into my head was do i really have to go to school ?! but on second thought i was wondering how long am i going to be like this
so i decided that i should control myself from drifting away & stay focus !
& the most stressing thing being in school or hearing from the teachers today was 'PROJECT NEED TO BE HAND IN END OF THIS WEEK" the best part is i have got 3 projects to do & i hardly even started on it nor did any of my group members did. maybe we are taking things easy ! Stay focus people . we are running out of time ! school is stressing but after all its a 1 year course . so patience everybody ! damn i hate school !

Overall thankfully something is out of my mind ! & its mainly cause of that i' am back to school & am going back to my old ways ! not to forget i' am also moving on in life . i can' t be stuck in such shit for the rest of my life . i think i can get a better life ! I' am happy now . but i do miss you !

Anw i can' t be sitting here the whole day writing everything from my head . i think i have got to save some for the next time . cause i' am hardly knowing what to write now days . Well , this shows how boring my life is !

Much love (;

2009-05-02T22:51:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers , I will not be updating my blog much now a days
Cause my internet is such a pain !

Anw just to keep people abit updated
i'll just post abit here & there about whatever that has been happening .
Basically nth that grt have been happening .
Untill yesterday sentosa , Just 4 of us but it was fun !
Well im not going to say much cause i have got only like half an hr befor the internet goes off !
Till the other post .
TKCARE (;

2009-04-26T03:49:00.000-07:00

Lately i have been feeling so lost & down !
I have been emotionally depress by some stuff around me .
I have been trying to catch up with some stuff lately but i' am failing to do it !
I have not been attending school & have been giving excuse after excuse to avoid stuff which will actually make me think of you !
I have brought myself all the way to a spot which i never wanted to be .
I have dreams , i don't want to just build castles .
its hard to cope with alot of things in my mind , its not as if i have got no one to talk to but it's hard to say what i need to say in a way to make anybody understand !
Trust me talking is easy but when it comes to action it is hard . VERY HARD !
& when it comes to you . You have been hurting me alot ! & it can't be bare .
I BEG YOU PLEASE STOP IT !
The pain is sharp .

I can't type any longer till another day .

2009-04-25T20:24:00.000-07:00

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

2009-04-24T22:44:00.000-07:00

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2009-04-24T00:19:00.000-07:00

Don't want to be In the pain i felt before .

you can save your little lies

Cause i know whats happenin'

Your missin' me

but say goodbye now

To all the days i was lovin' you !

X;

2009-04-24T00:00:00.000-07:00

Dear Mr. your such a pain in my ass !

I'm gonna say good bye to you

i mean it for real !

Kiss my ass sucker !

GOODBYE !

hate or love ?

2009-04-18T19:55:00.000-07:00

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Do i love or hate you ?

i hate those lies ,
i hate those fights ,
i hate to be disrespectful ,
i hate to fear you ,
i hate the way you ignore me ,
i hate the way you think !
I just hate you .

Maybe i dun't hate you abit !

pathetic ass !

2009-04-17T21:01:00.000-07:00

How annoying !
i was looking tru this persons blog & something really caught my eyes !
she claims she loves god , but she calls herself a bitch , she is crazy over drunkness , & her current status is flirt . Dame i never knew god taught such things .
wait ! your a muslim ( born muslim) isin it a sin ?
It sounds dumb when someone is actually taking so much about god is actually making sins !
I'm not saying that only perfect or holy ppl can talk or anything about god .
God loves everybody ! but for a pathetic ass like you to talk looks & sound annoying!
how pathetic !

Guys are like ?

2009-04-16T22:59:00.000-07:00

1. Guys are like Laxatives. They irritate the crap out of you.

2 Guys are like Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Guys are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.

4. Guys are like Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.

5. Guys are like Chocolate Bars .. Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Guys are like Commercials . You can't believe a word they say.

7. Guys are like Department Stores ... Their clothes are always 1/2 off!

8. Guys are like ... Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.

9. Guys are like .. Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

10. Guys are like Popcorn . They satisfy you, but only for a little while.

11. Guys are like Snowstorms . You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.

12! . Guys are like Lava Lamps . Fun to look at, but not very bright.

13. Guys are like Parking Spots All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

What does love mean ?

2009-04-13T06:33:00.000-07:00

1. Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way.

2. Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings."

3.Love is what makes you smile when you're tired

4.Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more

5.Love is hugging. Love is kissing. Love is saying no.

6.There are 2 kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them.

7.Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.

8.Don't feel so bad if you don't have a boyfriend. There's lots of stuff you can do without one

9.If you want somebody to love you, then just be yourself.

10.Love is what makes people hide in the dark corners of movie theaters.

11.Love goes on even when you stop breathing and you pick up where you left off when you reach heaven.

12.My enemies taught me how to love.

13.You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.

14.Love cards like Valentine's cards say stuff on them that we'd like to say ourselves, but we wouldn't be caught dead saying."

15.When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.

16.You never have to be lonely. There's always somebody to love, even if it's just a squirrel or a kitten.

17.You can break love, but it won't die.

2009-04-11T05:59:00.000-07:00

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
By: Unknown

2009-04-08T04:28:00.000-07:00

Stepahnie (:

Deepa & mine ( webcam)
Sparkk & deepa & me (webcam)

2009-04-05T22:49:00.000-07:00

Escape & wild wild wet was fun yesterdae (50409)

Throw stones at guys (;

2009-04-01T21:15:00.000-07:00

The first moment I saw you,

I had a funny feeling in my stomach.

The first time I talked to you, my face went bright red.

When you asked me out, my heart was filled with happiness.

The first moment I saw you, I thought you were easy.

The first time I talked to you, I thought you were a total slut.

When I asked you out, I was already planning our break-up.

When we went on our first date, I grew on you.

When you kissed me, I knew you were the one for me.

When you told me you love me, I knew I loved you back.

When we went on our first date, you were clingy.

When I kissed you, I knew you were head-over-heels for me.

When I told you I love you, I thought you were the easiest girl I ever sweet-talked.

A couple of days after our date, I saw you with another girl.

After following you for a few minutes, I saw you and that girl make out.

You saw me and begged for forgivness, and I forgave you.

A couple of days after our date, I went with another date with my ex-girlfriend.

After noticing you for a few minutes, I maked out with my ex.

I ran to you for forgivness, and you forgave me.

After that event, you took me to your house.We watched some movies and you kissed me.

The next morning and during last night, I wasn't a virgin anymore.

After that event, I took you to my house, thinking tonight's the night.

We watched some movies and I kissed you hard.

The next morning and during last night, I took your virginity.

The next day, you broke up with me.Saying I wasn't the one for you.

My heart broke into a million pieces.

The next day,I broke up with you.Saying that you weren't the right one for me and thinking that I didn't need you anymore.

Your face was priceless with shock and sadness.

A few weeks later, you come to me and wanted to get back together.

I accepted and you kissed me again, for what I thought you were happy.

A couple of days later, you screwed me again, making it my second time in bed with you.

A few weeks later, I come to you, wanting to get together because I had no one else to screw. You accepted and I kissed you again, happy from the fact I get to screw you again.

A couple of days later, I lead you on and got you in bed.

Months later, I just became your screw toy.

I couldn't take it anymore, I thought you loved me.

I left you, crying from my heart and eyes.

Months later, I just screwed you for days and every night.

I guess you couldn't take it, HA you thought I loved you?

You left me, I couldn't care less. I'll find another screw toy soon.

Some guys really dont care about how a girl really loves them. Guys who do this are such ASS HOLES!! . GIRL- 'Girls don't like this' GUY-'Some guys do this'.

Thank you for reading this

2009-03-31T19:36:00.000-07:00

It's APRIL FOOL !

how annoying , but it was fun !

i kinda fooled 2 people so far lols

RAGU & ARSHAD (;

& there is still more to come !

ouh , & i almost got fool but i was alert .

some other day suckers !

bullshit

2009-03-30T07:31:00.001-07:00

I'm back from the funeral ,

& there is alot of sleep i have got to get !

trust me seeing love ones going is really hard !

i think i should let this thing rest & not get mixed up or stress .

all i can say for now is rest in peace . your always loved bro (;

& coming to the other part sadly to say ,

i think i have give up ! your not worth my sleepless night & my tears .

seeing that i have got myself much more closer to you might sound dumb .

but thankfully i have come to know what sort of person you are & have been

im gonna move as much as i can even knowing that its hard for me !

you have something in mind which does ot seem right , & its disturbing me .

honestly i never thought i would get myself closer to you !

despit all the things i have told myself about you !

i even told myself many times people change ! but did you ?

i think i should hit myself real hard !

full stop !
im gonna end it here (;

;(

2009-03-27T02:39:00.000-07:00

RIP KEITHBOY ;(

i wonder what is the reason to his death ?

why did he had to do such a thing at such a young age ?

15 yrs old is not the end , there was more to come .

we will miss him ;(

i have got nothing much to tell about his death ,

but it was a real shock to every familly member .

RIP

2009-03-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

I'm done ! im feeling much better (;

to think about it , dame it im still young

whatever im gng tru now is just a stepping stone !

there is still much more im gonna learn . i have done mistakes after mistake

& yeah at this very point im going to get myself into shit . hell !

But i think i know what im doing , pretty much i guess !

i have been hurt by actions & saying .

but now i'll be strong . im gonna stand with my own legs & tell that your a wast of time (;

hahaks , i much fill with evil desires right now !

but whatever im gonna do im gonna be optimistic about it .

Peace out motherfuckers ;p

2009-03-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

Can someone show me love ?

i feel like crying ;(
if i ever go missing , please dun't find me !

trust no guys , fear no bitch .

2009-03-22T08:37:00.000-07:00

Im controling every single tears within myself !

should i let it out ? is a qn to myself .

i have to ask myself , if its all worth my tears ?

Every single word that has hurt me will be a huge hit back to you !

You make your lies into truth to fool me !

im not gonna take another step (mistake)

your faults have been mine .

your heart is set on another girl ,

your mind as been thinking about her !she is your weakness . your love !

i am not any of it !

im played for love . you are what you think you are not !

chances have been given , but nothing now can make me come back !

i had enough . its obvious your love for her is still the same .

im backing off

Goodbye'

love ;(

;(

2009-03-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

You made it clear when you said , I just don't love you no more !

2009-03-20T07:19:00.001-07:00

"Love"

Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection[1] and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. The word love is both a verb and a noun. Love is not a single feeling but an emotion built from two or more feelings. Anything vital to us creates more than one feeling, and we also have feelings about our feelings (and thoughts about our feelings)[1]. This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.
As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love[2] to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love.[3] Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.

think vanessa think

2009-03-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

There is something i kinda learn today , That its not the end to everything
no matter what happen we should never give up ! i kinda also got this thing into my gals head .
of cos why all the suffering & the "not being ourself" mask ? going tru all this things i swear i would rather be in a room with nothing in it but just a window which i could see the outside "world" and not wish i could be in that outside world . do you get it ? whatever im going tru now its seriously not worth it ! i had been tru there same shit but why am i bring myself back to it ?
i think i can have a better life indeed . all my tears & my patience has gone to waste .
at the very first time , i think i was just in mature thinking everything would go fine & it would rather be fun . as time goes by im regret for my past thoughts . isit what i want ? i asked myself & i got hit real hard ! all i said was im repeating my mistakes over & over again i should take think step by step . why rush ? its just where danger is . i think i have learn my mistake its time to change ! now most of you assholes might me laughing & tell vanessa will never change , its just talk but no action 1 all i can say is fuck off !

& for you i have been calling you loads of time but you keep ignoring me .
so be it i had enough if there is ever a time please do come back *eveil laugh*
im waiting ;p

anw i love my gals alot alot alot (;

Forever

2009-03-16T03:08:00.000-07:00

The time to wait for no one
You gotta say what you want,
If you were here with me now
I'd tell you, you're the one
Cuz you're the closest thing to an angel, that i ever met
So don't you worry, i'll never forget
You

Although you can't be, here by my side
I feel you near me, when i close my eyes
So i won't let your memory, come to an end
When i said forever, that's just what i meant
Forever,
Forever,
You're always in my heart forever, love

Now every morning i'm imagining your face
And all the little silly things you used to say
This is the pain that i can barely tolerate
Never thought it'd be this rough
Now when i smile in front of people, it's a fake
Cuz deep inside, i'm crying for my baby
It's gonna be awile before i'm okay,

Cuz now that you're gone, I know
The time to wait for no one
You gotta say what you want
If you were with me now
I'd say that you're the one
Cuz you're the closest thing to an angel, that i ever met
So don't you worry, i'll never forget
You

Although you can't be, here by my side
I feel you near me, when i close my eyes
So i won't let your memory, come to an end
When i said forever, that's just what i meant

Won't let nothing come between us
No matter how long or how hard it gets
Don't you know, you are the reason
That i'm what i breathe and live

So, although you can't be, here by my side
Now i feel you near me, when i close my eyes
So i won't let your memory, come to an end
Cuz when i said forever, forever's what i meant

(Forever) You're gone forever
(Forever) You're gone forever
Always in my heart forever
Forever's what i meant
(Forever) You're gone forever
(Forever) You're gone forever
Always in my heart forever

2009-03-14T10:33:00.000-07:00

its 1.33 am & about an hr or plus it was stephanie's birthday .
& we celb it at sentosa ! it was fun . hahaks we always out on our friends birthday . but just not mine . hahaks ;p
anw back to the sentosa thingy , i got wet & the best part i had no extra cloth . thankfully priya & deepa bought a top !
but the whole birthday thingy was a normal one . hope she did enjoy ;p
ouh & i even meet stephanie family . the whole family was there ! hopefully there was no bad impression (;
Anw happy belated birthday (;
pic will be uploaded tmr .

;(

2009-03-11T23:32:00.000-07:00

I have brought my self to a place where i should not be .
a place where i know i would be lost & confuse .
i have done mistake again & again .
why cant i just have the great mind to jus think what i need in life ?
Should i think for now or the future ? im thinking for the future !
i have told you times & times .
But at this very point of time i feel your all i have !
but You told me off & i think its not what i want .
I can't seem to let it go as it is ;(

& at the other side of my fickle mind im wondering is your " LOVE" true ?
You don't seem as if it is ?
why am i bringin my self to the start when i first flt in love with you ?
is it the very same as that time . your pissed , arn't you ?
I have let it down . i have let everyone down . I can't find where im suppose to be .
i think i know the ans . egoism ? yes its stoping me !
Help me !

i cant say go ;p

2009-03-11T05:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when we fight, I think maybe I
Should just let you leave and push you out of my life
But I don't decide, cause I know that I

Just can't survive without you
And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one
Even through the rain it's clear, your the one I want
And no matter how we fuss and fight boy, you should always know
I just can't stop loving you

Baby I've tried, to tell you goodbye
One look from your eyes and those dum toughts say goodbye
It's foolish to try, when I know that I
I just can't survive without you
And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one
Even through the rain it's clear that your the one I want
And no matter how we fuss and fight, boyl you should always know
I just can't stop loving you

To see through the night, you are my light
So even when we fight I know it's going to be alright
You have my soul, I'm just letting you know

its a song lyric its obvious i know (;

im sorry baby .

2009-03-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

I'm lost ! someone save me .
Will you ? show me love pls .
Who would do that ?
Cant make up mind . Am i stress ?
yupp i feel as if its love prob . lols' nah !
wait is it ? am i asking alot of question ? i am !
stop it vanessa . confusion ;p
Stop blogging its making me more stress !
bye for now . i gotta go & rest before i start tearing !
till the next blog ;(

2009-03-08T00:28:00.001-08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Click here to test it out yourself (;

Priya birthday

2009-03-07T21:36:00.000-08:00

Priya's birthday

Shisha picture;

birthday bite

mummy bdae .

2009-03-07T20:08:00.000-08:00

Firstly let me blog about mummy's birthday .
it was fun ! im serious .
Guess where we celb her birthday ? nah , most of you might not know .
but yupp , it was at the RISE TABLE ! the food was yummy !
anw she was happy . of cos she was !
Her birthday present was a watch ! a nice wan which cost $$$ ;p
Overall yupp like i said she was happy .

Pictures;

2009-03-06T08:50:00.000-08:00

Your such a pain !
Pls fuck off !
i dont wanna be treated like shit . i cant take it anymore .
im not a DOG nor am i your Bitch !
I had enough of mental stress from you .
Dog = to bitch (;
Sucker ;p

gd bye

2009-03-02T05:39:00.000-08:00

Say good bye to your friendster baby !
Hahaks , ouh it was his plan to delete it not me (; but who would say no to it ?
i must be out of my mind to tell him to keep his friendster when he act told me to delete it . so yupp now he has got no more friendster .
so peeps arshad will be using my friendster too !
act this whole friendster deleting is all because of some personal prob .
nothing for you assholes to know !
uhs , am i mean ? hahaks , sadly at this very point i dunt care .
cause i'am fill with much anger which anyone can think !
& to her thanks for the concern but im better off handling my own relationship prob (;
im yet to see what you have seen but im sure he is now changed
& not any longer how he used to be to you (;
Ppl change . hopefully he does .
anw its still my life & once agn thx i'll just keep all that you said in mind .
Arshad friendster is gone . no longer in use (;

Toodles much love ;p

2009-02-28T19:58:00.000-08:00

Guess what i got woke up early in the morning at 7 by him !
i was pretty much ok with it until he started to fight with me agn for that senseless thing !
how annoying ? why wun't he understand ? Its lyk always happening . he is always fighting for that . & out of no where he starts to show me his effing attitude ! one fine day im gonna smack his head real hard ;P even aft smacking his head & if he still shows , then i'll scream for someone to save me .
but duh its not like i did not sleep back i did & i woke up at 10.30 i think . & even aft that i did msg him but sadly he was not bothered . it means he is angry with me ! & the best part he is gonna get a tattoo done at his NECK !
& now im cracking my head if i should go for the b'dae !
maybe i should or maybe i should not .
im confused . err nvm i think i'll just go (:
wokey Whatever it is i still love him loads alot (:
at tis point some asshole will regret for what they did !
im not gonna write in detail . cos its over long time ago .
so long sucker (;

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2009-02-27T21:27:00.001-08:00

HELLO ;p Yupp as you can see im back to my long blogging . i seriously have got loads to blog on , but that depends if i have got the time (; let me start with 140209 which was V'day . well , it was fun shisha with the girls & our date which of cos was our guy . let me just say there was ttl 8 of us (; oh im just gonna cut every short & simple . alright other outing , soon to come . bcos most of of the time wen all get togerther is at clementi . Trust me they are one bunch of happening ppl . up till here whatever i wrote was effing lame . LETS SHUT THE CRAP .

i'm not gonna talk high about my friends
oh mistake i should not be saying friends as it only one person who is a pain anw as its obvious to some that something dumb is going on .

you will never know when one can change or why ?
friends = to trust . bullshit maybe not all !
theres is always a black sheep . ok maybe its not more on friendship but the persons attitude .
it seriously annoy the shit out of me & "my girls" .
Her cheap attitude its disgusting . her arrogant attitude dame it .
if only i could smack her head tru the wall . it will be fun (;
Oh , im act bitching about her ! who cares . everyone does .blah blah blah about her . grr (;
anw im missing him alot ;( he was suppose to be meeting me but guess where he is jurong swimming pool ! arse . sadly im not meeting him . so i have change my plan im going out . hopefully he does not see this.

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2009-02-26T04:23:00.001-08:00

Yeepy my blog is done (;
well i have got no time to blog o anything right now as i have got loads & loads of school work .
so ill update another day . when im free (;

till then tc peeps !

& not to forget my baby
i love him many many (

2009-02-25T23:01:00.001-08:00

there is a prob with my blog !
i will get back with everything when its done .
till then be patience ppl

bored

2009-02-15T22:50:00.000-08:00

I love him many many
& i love my bitches (;

love in the air (:

2009-02-09T18:59:00.000-08:00

IM BACK TO BLOGGING !

Yeppy guess wat i have got nth to wirte about .
all i wanna say is im in love (;
*screaming*
Wanna know who ? hahaks soon enuf for eveyone to get to know .
but not now there is still some shyt that gotta be done & yupp
then its woolala (;
till the nxt blogging . cause im at school i just wanted to get my blog update that is it !
& i am done with it .

till the nxt blogging
much love .

P.s-I love you many many baby

(;

2009-01-31T22:51:00.000-08:00

Yeah , i broke my promise .

you see you gtta understand i seriously am bz wit skl & many other things !

& lately i have been falling sick , like now !

i cant breath . & im coughing alt . & the best thing tmr theres skl .

& i dunt knw how tmr sick feeling is gonna feel like .

Ouh yeah most important thing im missing my girlfwens alt . the 4 girls !

trus me they are one hell of the happening ppl . & now some bitches would rather be cursing the shyt outta me (if you knw who im refering to) .

& some people out there will be woundering ! hahaks (;

ok now some of you will be going whatever ! am i right ?

then why on earth are you viewin my blog ?

dumb shyt !

Uhs guess whr i was yesterdae nyte ?

ARAB STREET (;

shisha ? hell yeah , grape & mint .

food of cos . what is outting witout food !

alt of food ? yes muc more i cld even think of .

hahaks its more of a family girl outtin ! no father no brothers !

trust me it was much more fun hen i tot it would be .

& yupp im going back there next week wit deepa .

ouh ya you will act be thinking who i went wit right ? mother , sisinlaw & deepa .

yupp thrs nothing much to write aout yesterdae .

jus 1 word FUN !

Wokey now at this very point im seriously thinking of what to write !

i have got nothing to say which you peps should knw .

so let me just stop here till my next bloggin .

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2009-01-28T23:48:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging . Im in class & im bored !
act the main reason im bloggin now cos my blog looks dead !
& not forgetting cos stephanie asked me to update !
Hahaks . im my head is now fill with words .
what i mean is i have got way alot if things to tok about !
About my bdae , CNY , skl & much more !
Anw skl is gonna end & i cant blog any longer .
this time its a promise i will blog lata on once im home !

P. S- I miss & love you many many kaka . & i love my 4 lesbos too (;

;x

2009-01-14T01:46:00.000-08:00

3 more days to 17 january ! which is my birthday ((;

yeepy & im celeb it at a chalet . woohoo i cant wait ! in patience for sat !

Pix will be uploaded .

& nw im in a rush , i gotta go till nxt tym .

which will be aft my bdae i think !

much love

x;

2009-01-10T07:41:00.000-08:00

Once again im back to bloggin !

yupp as you can see from this it shows how lazy iam .

act i was busy with school & my B'dae !

YEEPY my b'dae is coming ! & yupp , everyone cant wait for that day !

PARTYYYYYY((;

Ouh & yupp im in love with Edward ! is his name spell right ? hahaks who cares !

Now most of you will be thinking who on earthhe is right & most of you would have got it !

Hahaks Twilight baby !

lols he is so so so hot !

& if any of you are planning to get a present for me please please get me hym .

If you have not watch to the movie i think you should cos you will act

fall in love with him . I know it sound stupid for me to go gaga over him .

But too bad !

& eh its not as if im the only gal saying such think .

half of the population is like going gaga over him .

& yupp guys are going crazy ! trust me i did come across such thing where i act told someone about him hahaks he now does not want to watch the movie .

jealous ? i guess so !

& hell yeah im readi to watch that movie more !

hahaks lets shut the crap here !

anw today was a pretty diff day . as i had to shop & shop & shop

for my bdae stuff , which its tis sat !

17 jan & im 17 .

cool arx ? yeah , i know !

hahaks well what wld ppl buy for a b'dae celeb ?

think hard hard ! cos im gonna stp here !

im slpy !

till nxt tym .

toodles . much love !

x;

2009-01-06T02:52:00.000-08:00

Back frm school . oh from ite not woodlands sec .
if you aint sure where im studying !
honestly skl sucks ! but hopefully i will like it as tym goes !
oh yeah , thrs lyk loads of malay & chinese in ma skl !
everything takes time .
Well tmr i have some cheer shyt thingy in skl ! & for sure im gonna make a fool out of myself & i aint gonna do anything ! wakakaka !
anw my classmate are pretty much ok . friendly i can say !
as i said gotta wait & see wads gonna happen !
well im gonna stp it here . cos im gonna slp even tho its 7 !
nitenite
til lata !

;x

2009-01-02T20:02:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging after a effing long time .
Was real busy with New yr & skl (was getting readi for skl)
Skl starts on mondae ! yeepy ((;
IM BOTH SCARED & HAPPY . lols

anw i have got nothing to blog on .
i have got to get back to my shyt for mondae .
till lata .

& happy new year everyone ((;

2008-12-29T20:46:00.001-08:00

MY BACK HURTS

fuckers

2008-12-29T20:39:00.000-08:00

Now most of you peeps will be thinking that im writing about someone .
get this into you stupid mind , its not ! he/she . get that clear & get your fucking busybody noise else whr !

lalala

2008-12-29T20:10:00.000-08:00

Im lazy & still slpy . i just woke up !
hahaks the time is 12.12 . mayb nt woke up nw but awhile ago .

anw you kw i have been noticing every single moves ppl around me have been doing .
of cos SOMEONE ELSES TOO . hnstly its effing annoying ! mayb i should not talk about this right now !
its the moring i mean early aftnn i shld be happy rather den craping about that shit .

i have got nothing to tlk about . bt i wanna say smt ! lols
HELLO NEW FWEN KESAVAN ((;
yeah , as you cn see im bored ((;
ok anw i jus wanna knw why are some ppl reali bothered about ma life ? hw fack .
is it ? or is it nt ? its weird . its either they are possessed or they have gt split personalty !
it seriously annoying to have this kind of ppl in life .
bt cool at the same time .
cause you never knw what they are gonna say or how they are gonna behave .
annoying is cause its more like 2headed snake .
you know seens yesterdae my updating sound more as if im gonna go for some war .
LETS MAKE PEACE . tts a random shit !

ok now i have to get ma ass back to woodlands sec school to take my $$ .
yupp my ccc & cdc $$ . lols

toodles xx;
till lata .

Fucking hell !

2008-12-28T21:07:00.000-08:00

It's 1.07pm & im still lost .
How annoying can some ppl be . seriously are they out of mind ?
what is so cool about it ? ok i get it no body understand what im toking about .
i knw i sound weird . but its life it is suppose to sound & be weird ryte !
Why does life sucks ? noone has got the ans to it ryte ? see its weird !
Act that was a random qn wich everyone ask .
uh yeah , what so cool abt tellin someone you love them & stil fucking around ?

the main idea of me writing such thing was to pin pt .
am i act dng it ? no im nt !

hahaks bitches are checking ma bloggy out !
fucking sluts . wasting everybdy tym ! smart ppl will understand what im saying !
but now they can tottaly go suck dick ! cos i hav change ma add ! stupid sluts !

ouh yupp i have learnt a new thing from someone . act its not !
bt it was someone who msged me !

assumptions are the mother hood of all screw ups !

it was jus to tell SOMEONE .

you knw im gonna stop it here cos for a fact if i dunt .
its gonna be a world war here !
i rather hav it on sum bitches face to face .

till the nxt blogging ((;